Au Revoir, France — G’day, Tasmania

The sound of Chopin drifted through our teeny Paris hotel room in the Marais district at 5 am only a week ago.

We hadn’t really needed the alarm. Neither of us had slept much on that final night, with feelings of excitement, sadness and a little trepidation all jostling around in our minds.

Part of the sadness came from the fact that, after a patchy few weeks, Les was finally feeling more like himself again—and we wanted more time to enjoy that.

After landing in France following our mesmerising, amusing and, at times, very amusing road trip through Scotland, we had been looking forward to the final French chapter. We were also bracing ourselves for a big couple of weeks, chock-full of festivities.

And chock-full they were.

Our first three nights were in the port city of La Rochelle on the west coast of France, where we happily bunkered down in the former mansion of a thirteenth-century sea captain. Now a tasteful bed and breakfast, it had a wonderfully comfortable bed and was only a few minutes’ stroll from the bustle of the old port.

Friends we were meeting for a party in Talmont-Saint-Hilaire the following week had highly recommended the place.

They weren’t wrong.

At best, we had imagined La Rochelle would be a pleasant distraction by the sea in warmer weather and a convenient stop before reaching our next French destination. After the layered road trip we had just completed through Scotland, that would have been enough.

But La Rochelle was so much more.

As consummate lovers of seafood—and it is no secret that we don’t mind the odd drop of wine—we found this place had it all. Its magnificent old harbour was surrounded by bars, restaurants and cafés, tucked into cobblestone streets and briny sea air, with nautical history waiting around every corner.

La Rochelle was particularly good for Les’s nautical soul and felt like a much-deserved chance for him to properly enjoy this part of the trip.

And thank God his beer hand had remained fully operational throughout.

He managed to dutifully exchange regular “beer of the day” photographs with his good mate Chris, who, along with his wife and daughter were also making their way towards France after spending an equally special time in sunny Italy.

Les comes from a large nautical family of tug masters and captains, and the old port sang directly to that very deep part of him.

So La Rochelle and nearby Île de Ré—almost as wonderful , had us immersing ourselves in everything they offered during the all-too-brief three nights we had there.

We left just as excited about the next leg, even though La Rochelle has since been declared one of our favourite places from the entire seven-week trip.

Off we went in our little hybrid towards the quieter and very authentic French town of Talmont-Saint-Hilaire.

My friend has a very tough gig in life in this refreshingly pretty area. She shares a rather large and gorgeous holiday home close to the sea that she and her family have been enjoying for more than 40 years. La Mavoie is like something out of a movie set.

And I don’t feel very sorry for her.

So , apart from the excitement of catching up with good friends we hadn’t seen for ages—many of them travelling from Sydney and all over the globe for our much-loved friend’s 60th birthday celebration—we were delighted to have six nights in a cute, fully equipped apartment perched right on the marina, looking towards the sea.

And there was yet more fresh seafood.

Oysters everywhere!

They were good. Very good, in fact. But in all honesty—bias aside, or perhaps not—they were still not a scratch on our Tassie oysters.

Nevertheless, we persevered and toughed out the west-coast French oysters so that we could continue to be seen as team players.

The cheese, on the other hand…

Nowhere in Tasmania, Australia or possibly the entire world has such delicious cheese, at such reasonable prices, so readily available.

Thank God we have the oysters, and I think our wine can hold its own against the French. But their cheese is another story.

If you are sensing a theme in this blog—one that probably also came through rather strongly in my social media photographs—food and wine featured prominently on this trip.

France is home to Les’s favourite cuisine in the world, and “immersing ourselves” is really the only way to describe what we did.

In fact, had we stayed much longer, I was beginning to worry that we might need to ask for a seatbelt extender on the flight home.

I think we escaped just in time.

Phew.

The birthday party arrived, and it was everything—and more—that we could have wished to be part of. In fact, the entire seven-week journey had eventually been designed around ending with this celebration.

In hindsight, my special party dress might have been far more flattering without my newly acquired kilos had we travelled through Poland and Scotland after the party, spending the following weeks on a diet consisting mainly of sausage and potatoes, instead of before .

But no such luck.

Still, it was a delightfully joyous celebration, with a long, late lunch beneath the warm twilight skies of western France, the briny scent of the sea mingling with fresh grass and wildflowers that adorned a spectacular long table.

And we got to play some rather interesting lawn games that reached an entirely new level of originality once most of the guests had reached peak merriment.

Eventually, we waved farewell to the birthday girl and most of the guests, and set off in the direction of Paris.

But first, we stopped for one night at Mont-Saint-Michel.

We wanted to see the abbey rising above the tidal island. It is not simply an abbey but an entire medieval village, climbing steeply upwards until it seems to merge into the abbey itself.

It was every bit as spectacular as people had told us.

We arrived late in the afternoon on the day after the party. I was feeling slightly foggy-headed.

It must have been the baguette I had eaten for breakfast.

Les, who had been the designated driver the day before, was in substantially better form.

We made the long trek from the car park towards the island—well, mostly on the shuttle bus—crossed the bridge over the tidal flats and wound our way up the steep cobblestone streets towards the abbey entrance.

To my rather horrified surprise, and Les’s clear-headed delight, we were just in time for the last two-hour tour.

“How lucky was that?” Les said.

I somehow managed to nod and agree, already visualising the post-tour drink and sit-down.

I have no doubt the tour was fantastic. I seem to recall that our guide was incredibly passionate about the abbey, its history and its architecture, and some fragments of her detailed commentary did manage to penetrate my head.

Just after we left Les quietly said that the abbey was the most impressive historic building he had ever visited. A big call.

I nodded, feeling mildly guilty , while gulping down my hair-of-the-dog Pinot Gris and asking for more peanuts.

The following day, off we went to Paris.

First, our trusty hire car needed to be returned to Paris Charles de Gaulle Airport, requiring our usual right-brain and left-brain teamwork to get it there.

The only problem with the shared couple-brain we have developed over almost 20 years of travelling and being together is that sometimes we both have a right brain at the same time.

Occasionally, one entire brain sneaks off for a rest altogether.

That is when things happen, such as driving past the hire-car entrance at a massive international airport three times.

Then came Paris.

It was my sixth visit to the City of Light and romance.

My first was in 1973 with my mother, whom I still consider extraordinarily brave for taking such a large European trip alone with her eight-year-old daughter.

How on earth she managed it without Google, artificial intelligence, email or a mobile phone, I can only begin to imagine.

If someone took all those things away from me now and handed me an eight-year-old to manage, I would view it as something akin to starring in an episode of Survivor.

My other visits included one with a good girlfriend during my single days in my early forties, one by myself a year earlier, and now three with Les.

But every time I visit, Paris gives me something of herself that is new and different. Somehow, each visit seems to align with something significant happening in my life at the time.

The last time I was in Paris, in 2019, I woke on our first morning to the second set of DNA results I had ordered, confirming what I had already begun to understand was true , sealing a new reality that would change my life.

The journey that followed that year helped give me space to an internal dialogue that I have wrestled with, made peace with and eventually embraced. It is a dialogue that has never fully disappeared, and perhaps never will, but one that has ultimately left me feeling more whole, more complete and freer to grow than ever before.

For that reason alone, I feel connected to the city, as though she calls me in whenever life demands it.

This time, we had only two nights.

We were both beginning to feel much better than we had during the previous weeks, although the potential seatbelt-extender problem was looming. So we ate, drank some more and met up with some of our closest friends and their delightful young-adult children, who were also in Paris.

We had an altogether fabulous time.

And so we return to that final morning and the sound of my newly programmed alarm playing Chopin and reverberating around our hotel room.

Thoughts of our golden girl Stella were bigger in our hearts and minds than ever before.

We showered, grabbed our luggage, went down to the foyer and stepped into the dark street to begin the journey home.

The night before, we had commented on how smoothly the entire trip had gone.

Not one serious flight delay.

Not one lost suitcase.

Not one completely stuffed-up booking.

Only minor things.

We had barely settled into the back seat of the taxi, our minds already drifting towards airport check-in, when blue flashing lights began flickering at the edges of our peripheral vision.

As they drew closer and the siren grew louder, a knot began tightening in my belly.

“Must be that group of young men outside our hotel,” Les said quietly.

“Mmm, must be,” I agreed.

But they had looked fairly tame to me—just young blokes lingering into the dawn after a big night out.

It was when the flashing lights stayed with us, the siren grew louder and our taxi driver began to look increasingly nervous that reality kicked in.

Then he pulled over.

Five fully armed police officers jumped out of their vehicle and soon surrounded our taxi.

Needless to say, we became a tad nervous too.

There were many moments during the trip when I wished I had learned more of the language.

This was definitely one of them.

The officers looked like a squad of action heroes. They each had their hands hovering over their guns, strong jaws and not one of them was smiling.

But oddly our taxi driver kept laughing in a strange, nervous way that made it all seem even more unnerving and rather diabolical.

Sharply toned word’s were exchanged in rapid French ,and papers handed over. Torches were shone through the windows and across the back seat. We squinted into the light and attempted to arrange our faces into the most innocent and charmingly vulnerable expressions we could muster.

I wondered whether we had eaten too many oysters in the previous town or perhaps short-changed the baguette vending machine.

The French are very possessive about their baguettes.

But with mild relief it became clear it was the driver who was under investigation.

The process lasted about 15 minutes, although it felt like an hour. And I began to wonder if my wish to stay longer in Paris was about to take a sinister turn.

Les sat quietly, staring straight ahead and choosing not to make eye contact with the potentially reactive woman tensed up in the seat beside him.

Fortunately, my left brain told me it might be wise to follow his example.

My fingers, however, were having none of it.

They flew across my phone, busily texting my good friend back at the hotel while doing their best to keep the rest of me contained—particularly my voice and the growing urge to leap out of the taxi and do a runner.

I started to wonder whether our driver might be a wanted terrorist or a serial killer.

My insomniac friend—thank God for her—replied immediately and suggested that we get out of the car and ask the armed officers surrounding us whether we were safe.

My thoughts exactly.

But Les kept his eyes firmly ahead, shook his head and muttered, “Stay quiet. It will be resolved.”

And, of course, somehow it was.

We still don’t know why the taxi was stopped or what was said. But my bladder relaxed slightly when, after a nod and a few final French words, the officers retreated to their vehicle and drove away.

So, on the final morning of our trip, Paris Charles de Gaulle Airport became a far more welcome sight than we could ever have imagined.

We tipped our poor driver, who had sniffled all the way there. I suspect he had been crying.

We wished him well and high-tailed it towards the check-in desk.

Ahead of us was the long flight home via Singapore—the usual economy-class sardine-can experience.

Except, by some small miracle, we ended up with an entire empty row to ourselves, which of course we were wildly excited about.

Then came a lovely night at The View Hotel in North Sydney, lunch with my parents and the final reshuffling of luggage weight before the last leg back to Hobart.

Now, only a few days later, we find ourselves home in sleepy Tasmania.

This time, the view beyond my window is from my own office. Stella keeps wandering back and forth outside, and my little fan heater is only just managing to keep me warm.

There are not too many terrorists down here in Cradoc… at least not that we are aware of.

We did, however, spend a full day with two of our grandchildren yesterday. Their main crime , being impossibly cute, which does tend to elevate my heart rate and turn me into a cuddling demon with absolutely no respect for their personal space.

Still, they didn’t have us bolting for the nearest airport.

Although I am still poring over the holiday photographs with a healthy dose of melancholy, we are happily back to evenings with our golden girl snuggled across our laps, the fire spreading warmth through the house and the crisp-cold Tasmanian winter waiting outside, reminding us why we love coming home.

And, naturally, we are already planning our next getaway.

Across the Sea and Nearly Home

It is hard to believe this is only day five since we flew into France on a six am flight from Edinburgh. What a whirlwind this has been, and how full our memory banks are feeling already. Albeit, our actual bank account has not fared quite so well.

But, oh well… c’est la vie.

We have landed in the quiet seaside village of Talmont-Saint-Hilaire and are unwinding in a cosy apartment with our own kitchen and the sight and sound of waves crashing beyond our window.

Looking out over the Atlantic Ocean, we are now in countdown mode for a good friend’s 60th birthday, only a few days away. We are very excited to see more good friends and come together to share stories about the various adventures abroad that have brought us all to this final part of our travels.

It will be a huge celebration and grand finale for many of us. Our birthday girl herself has just returned from a very impressive 20-day, 400-kilometre pilgrimage from Tuscany to Rome, so her night of celebration will be riding on a particular high.

And so here I find myself with a spare afternoon beside another window in another country, realising we have reached our final country and the pièce de résistance of the whole adventure.

But one thing we have learnt over the past few years, since Les’s cancer diagnosis — thankfully now in remission, though we are forever aware of the realities of that verdict — along with the loss of parents, and the devastating news of the same cursed disease spreading to some of our very closest and dearest friends, is that we are more intent than ever to live, feel and experience whatever we can, whenever we can.

And here I go, meandering off course once again.

Please stay with me. I do have a point to all of this, which will hopefully make more sense to you, the reader, and to me as well, as the words land on the page and explode out of my head and heart.

So, looking back out of my French seaside window, as I take time to breathe in the sound of birds chirping and waves crashing — oh, and the washing machine working hard to return our dwindling underwear supply…..it feels like now or never, once again, to get my thoughts down about where we have been since the last sign-off from the Krakow window.

And for the record, I really didn’t want to leave Krakow.

Out of all the places we have been, I wanted more of that city than any other. We were both unwell on that leg of the trip, and our bed didn’t want us in it.  We could tell by the way either one of us would roll out if the other moved an inch. So we were tired, but that didn’t stop the feeling that I wanted so much more of the city than the five days we had.

It is one city — and one country — I feel sure I will return to. Not many places leave that calling card in a person’s heart when they leave. I have a few now, and many that I have loved but not yearned to return to. I already had Italy, Ireland and Scotland , hence why we were on our way there for a second trip — but Poland has now also left its echo in my heart, and I am already placating my grief at leaving with reassurances that I will be back.

So, off we headed from Krakow and on to Prague.

Everyone I know who has been to Prague said, “Oh Prague. Oh yes, you will love it!”

And we did . Beautiful Prague. With the Charles Bridge, the Old Town Square, museums, music, trees and history. It had it all. But so close on the heels of Krakow, Gdańsk and Warsaw, I couldn’t shake the emotional bias that had anchored me back in the country of my father’s birth. Prague was lovely, but to me, not as beautiful as Krakow.

Les tended to agree with me. But like any good husband travelling while already tired, lugging around five times more luggage than he actually packed or needed for himself, and managing an overly emotional wife, I suspect he knew that agreeing with me was in his best interest.

I will say that we had a very luxurious apartment in Prague, and that bed was definitely happy to have us in it. We also found a fabulous riverside taphouse , we discovered it like a secret treasure which magically appeared one day through an old tunnel glistening in sunshine and it served up cocktails, fantastic beer and decadent pizzas, with 80s rock and roll hits played by live musicians all afternoon, every day. That part was fun and made us smile a lot.

We also managed to attend a symphony orchestra concert with an opera singer in the Chapel of Mirrors in the Old Town, also a stone’s throw from our luxurious apartment, and that gave us a high as well. The history is as rich as anywhere else, and we were so glad to have visited, but we don’t think we will be back — or at least, our hearts are not longing to return.

But never say never.

So, with our excessive luggage growing by the kilo every other day, along with our waistlines, and our now customary hour or more spent strategically trying to redistribute weight and calculate restrictions for the next budget airline we were on, we waved goodbye to the great city of Prague and headed to Glasgow.

It was our second trip to Scotland, but last time we hadn’t seen Glasgow, so we thought it might be a good starting point for our Central and Highland Scotland adventure. And it was a good starting point, but not nearly enough to form an opinion. So while we liked it, it didn’t get under our skin like Edinburgh did last trip. Returning is a soft maybe.

We then headed off towards Inverness under days of continual glorious sunshine, which gradually gave way to wind, mist and the type of Scottish rain that seemed fitting and perfectly timed for our visit to Culloden.

Like Auschwitz, the emotions and words in that sad place settled in our hearts with a dull ache and a silence that did not feel quite right for this blog. Too deep and sombre and too much a part of what many people already know.

Like many multi-generation Australians of Anglo-Celtic blood, I have ancestors from clans with names directly linked to my own family tree who fell at Culloden. But that is another blog, or perhaps a private family update, for another day.

What did get under our skin — deep into both our hearts — was the Highlands.

This part of the trip was meaningful for both of us.

Les had mapped the whole sector out himself, spending hours researching routes, distances and interesting places to stay. He did it for both of us, in part because we both have genetic threads leading us back here: mine through my maternal line, and his through his paternal line, both confirmed through Ancestry DNA. Pretty well 50% for Les in the mid to lower part of Scotland, to match his other Maltese 50%, and for me 30% Highlands and 20% Northern Ireland.

But I also know that, in large part, he planned this Highland journey just for me.

When we first moved to Tasmania four years ago to start our lives afresh, Les was still coming through the long battle of chemotherapy after his shock stage 4 cancer diagnosis. Like many cancer survivors, hardship survivors and battlers of all kinds, one tends to see life and time and priorities through a different lens afterwards.

We certainly did. And still do.

I think in many ways we can say thanks to cancer, fear and hardship for stoking that flame in us, and giving us a bigger, bolder and brighter view of the horizon ahead.

We count our blessings that Les came through his, and our hearts break for those not so lucky, but while revelling in gratitude, Les has taken to our small farm under the southern skies like a duck to water. He has also helped ignite my long-stifled desire to write into a bigger reality than ever before.

I love him so much for all of that, and for the effort he put into this part of the trip.

And the trip did exactly what it was intended to do.

On our last trip, we had come by car ferry to Turnberry. We even had a cocktail at Trump’s golf course, which I admit now with some reluctance. On that journey, we stayed mostly on that side of Scotland. To be honest, we had an experience on the Isle of Lismore, meeting the head of the Livingstone clan and being plied with gin and tonics at 9am by the Baron of Bachuil, that probably deserves a blog of its own.

But for this blog, let it sit on the record that I was inspired to return and dig more deeply into my maternal Scottish ancestry very much as a result of that experience.

And now for context.

I started writing a novel two years ago, just for fun and to practise while participating in a Write Your Novel course. A requirement was to have at least, or be close to, 20,000 words of a novel before you could start.

My biggest novel ambition was, and is, the historical semi-fictional story of my Polish grandmother and great–grandmother and their stories of resilience and survival. It will be a huge project, and one I have felt humbled by the enormity of their stories and not deserving enough to write about them.

They are biologically my heroines, but I didn’t grow up with them. I have struggled with my sense of not being worthy or skilled enough, and still struggle.

So my plan arrived out of the forced 20,000 words I had to write. I wanted to write a made-up historical fiction story about two other women, as a type of practice run. I could let my imagination run wild and not get weighed down by feelings of inadequacy representing a true story I do not feel wholly entitled to tell.

So, on a whim, Scotland and my mother’s own ancestors came to me.

I don’t know if they are her ancestors, of course, because their names, their lives and their hardships all just popped into my head as I found them on the page. And when they arrived, they arrived with such force that I was quite amazed by how deeply visual their landscape, voices, stories, families and names became as they came rushing into my head.  I felt their pain and their grief.  I felt cold when they were cold and I felt loved and light when they were happy.  This is how I want to feel when I eventually write within the new confounds of fiction versus reality for my actual grandmother and great grandmother.  But with these two strong willed Scottish women I had no such internal barrier.  They were and are as real to me as I could have ever hoped

I’m not overly superstitious, but… quite honestly, I have since discovered names and places in my actual family tree that run in direct parallel to the characters born in my head without any prior knowledge.

I have to wonder.

And there was an old abandoned church that showed itself to me as I wrote. It arrived on the very first page. I could see it as clearly as if I had been there a thousand times. This old church, with its ruins by the sea, became an anchor for my story, and eventually I thought I should Google it to see whether any such place actually existed. If it did — even if it was only vaguely similar to the one in my imagination — perhaps I could allow my curious mind, which occasionally likes to think of itself as a tad clairvoyant, to believe there might be something in it. I have always felt a little witchy like this.

And it turns out there is.

Not just vaguely similar, enough to put some fluff and cement around my story, but a place that is 100% the same place, in the same part of Scotland. I know because last week Les and I went there.

It is an old chapel, with the same old and newer headstones scattered outside. It is, like my story, originally built in the 13th century, though my story takes place a few hundred years later.

So, while we had many big, emotional and deeply moving experiences in the stunning landscape of Scotland, the day we parked the car and made the long walk across bridges and over hills to the edge of the cliff that looked over the North Sea, we stood there, just the two of us.

Not another soul anywhere — well, not a living human one anyway.

The place was thick with energy, some dark and some light, and for me it was beguiling and deeply magnetic. This place wasn’t obvious online, so I hadn’t conjured it from pictures. It is rather an obscure location, but I had conjured it from somewhere, somehow, because without any doubt, this was the place that had anchored my story. Embedded in the dormant 20,000 words that have been sitting silent and neglected, like this church, for the last two years.

We stayed for over an hour, and Les, in his gentle, wise way, slipped away and let me immerse myself. Their story came flooding back into my head.

In fact, on the drive back from the church, and through all the days that followed, the story was so big and revealing that I could feel tension in my bones, in my belly. I was barely able to concentrate on the sightseeing that followed.

Mission accomplished.

Book one is worming around in my head, and my characters are screaming at me to get their tales down on paper.

But in the meantime, because we still have a few dollars left in our dwindled bank account to throw around on cocktails and oysters and baguettes — and chocolate croissants, ofcourse — we finished our Scotland trip on a high. We promised ourselves we will return, but only after I have finished writing my book.

Either way, Scotland is under our skin and deep in our hearts. The rain, the cold, the sunshine, the stodgy food and excellent whisky. All of it. Just like Poland, we know that Scottish soil will fall beneath our feet another time.

We had a hilarious Irish host at an equally hilarious pub stay in Thurso, who did his best to impersonate Mrs Brown.

On our third-last day, already booked to fly to France from Edinburgh, he told us that leaving without doing a lap of the upper west coast of Scotland would be like leaving without seeing the jewel in the crown of the whole country.

As an Irishman who comes from another stunning landscape, we took his advice on board. But with no time left, and in actual fact, quite a few jewels already in our hearts, we felt we had earned at least a glimpse of the Scotland crown. We will go back and see if his advice stacks up. His hotel sure didn’t, but that was part of the whole Scottish adventure.

And now we are in France.with more to see and two weeks to go.

We have been here before, but not to this district. As ever, France is sexy, mildly arrogant, subtly beautiful and delicious in every way.

The food, the landscapes and this new region have been a beautiful final layer of fresh experiences in a fabulous and multi-layered trip.

And with more than a week to go, a party to enjoy, and only twelve dresses and four pairs of shoes to choose from, we remain focused on what is still to come and grateful for all that has been offered — heart, soul and body.

But Tassie is waiting for us, and so is our golden retriever Stella, whom we have missed more than anything else.

Sorry kids, we love you all, but Stella……..we are nearly home.